I just decided to join this group after listening to Jay on-line for the past year. I am not a tech person and just yesterday I learned that my beloved acting coach of 33 years who has been the only real parent I have ever had, Rick, is now in hospice with only a few weeks to live. I turn 62 on Sunday (I was born on Mother’s Day). My narcissistic mother has alcohol related dementia (and is a vegetable now) and is in a home in Pennsylvania. I feel so alone, hopeless and confused as all the people who were my surrogate parents or were really close to me have all died in the past 6 years. I don’t know how to get started with this. I am paralyzed with fear, anxiety and grief. I feel completely numb. If someone could please contact me, my number is 310-704-9421 or email me at email@example.com. Thank you.